Wholly Holy

I havent been in one of these moods for a long time.

Today I had to tell a friend about a sin ive been committing for a little while now. I hate doing it, i felt embarassed and ashamed that I would do that!

Then a whole heap of other stuff is going wrong. I keep double booking things, forget about stuff then get in trouble for not remembering, i have to prioritise things i really dont want to because i need them both, not just 'one or the other'.

Things that have been annoying me for ages and ages are building up in a really unhealthy way inside of me and I just want to yell at these people about how much they annoy, frusturate and anger me!

I start calling these people names in my head, and a voice in my head keeps telling me how crap I am about differnt things and how my life is worthless. I was thinking about this is the car just then and realised it must be the devil. The devil is sometimes known as the accuser and thats exactly what the voice was doing, accusing me and helping me accuse others.

In short, even though i might sometimes seem like i have it all together, i really dont. I still get tempted, i still get down, i still sin reguarly.

God, thank you that you love me no matter what. And that even though I sin and know I shouldnt I am always forgiven by you when I ask. It seems too easy, like I havent done enough to deserve or earn it, and I havent. But you did it on the cross. Thank you so much. I love you. Let the people that read this know your love too. Help us not to be judgmental, hypocritical or nasty to each other. Help us to confess and repent so we can become better people through you and have a better relationship with you. In Jesus name, Amen!